just tryna live my life & be the best I can be


A girl with with a mind full of dreams, thoughts and loves.



About three weeks ago, on Friday, September 18th, I have reached a milestone in my life & I say that because its significance means so much to me. That day, after school, I got my very first camera. Why is this so important to me?Well, if you have been following my blog posts, you may know that I have been working basically all day, handling two jobs during the summer, and that was because I wanted to invest in a camera.

I don't know for sure when I found a love for taking photos, but I remember Grade 8 (or was it 9? ...YOU SEE) when I had to do a Photography project and I was so intrigued with the macro setting on my family's compact camera that I was using. I started playing around with the different functions on the camera, but of course, I was this complete newbie and didn't know what I was doing the whole time. Last year, when I was in my school's yearbook committee, I got my first experience of using SLRs and I became even more interested in Photography. The same year, I also got a new phone (LG G3) which has a pretty spectacular camera so I just started shooting with my phone right away for fun. I thought that I was pretty good at taking photos, like "hey, I may be better than your average person-who-is-new-to-cameras!" One reason I wanted to get my own camera besides pure interest was the fact that I hated using the Auto setting on what ever camera I used. I thought it was a way of "cheating" which bothered me and I had this deep longing of just wanting to learn manually how to take photos, so I would really understand how a camera works and also, how creative you can get with photo-taking in the long-term.

If you follow me on Snapchat, you may or may not have seen the longest snapstory in your life which was my first reaction to getting the camera. I actually saved most of the clips, so if you want to watch this crazy, happy girl react to getting her first camera, I'll leave the link here. I really meant for that reaction to be exclusive for the few people who I have on that app, but every time I watch it, I get really happy because it shows exactly how much the whole moment meant to me.

Anyways, the camera I got was the Olympus OM-D E-M5! I'd actually been planning to get an SLR for the longest time, and it wasn't until about a month before buying a camera that I changed my mind and decided to get a compact camera. I wanted to be able to have my camera (wow... I get to say MY camera...) with me almost everywhere I went, and I wasn't ready to deal with the heaviness of an SLR. Before going to the camera store, I did a good amount of research on cameras and eventually, choose 3 different compact cameras that were available at the store. I printed papers and everything, and then showed them to the man working there, who by the way, was the biggest help I would've ever imagined in an employee- although, I think he was the manager or even owner which may have been why he was excellent at his job. I explained to him that this would be my very first camera and I think he knew how important and significant that was for me so he offered me the best help. I also got some help from my friend, Durga, beforehand, so thanks girl!

The process took about an hour and a half,  but it's essential to use all the time you need before investing in something expensive. I ended up getting this camera that wasn't even any of the 3 that I choose, but I was very thankful in the end, because everything just fell into place.. grace upon grace upon grace, man, I swear. Here's what was so amazing; I got the body and lens used so it was A LOT cheaper than what I was expecting to pay, which meant that I got the opportunity to add other accessories like a protective lens and an SD card with more space than I realistically need. Overall, I spent about $300 dollars less than what I was expecting to pay and I became the happiest girl in the world at that moment.

If you decided not to watch my reaction video, I'll explain here how this whole day went down, and why I decided to get my camera after school. It was weird 'cause I wasn't having such a good day, or week... basically, since school had started 2 weeks earlier, I just haven't been feeling well. However, I did have this sort of draft in my head that I'd go shooting on the weekend. Earlier that day, I was thinking "hm okay, gotta go to the bank.. maybe I'll go to the camera store and get a camera.. I don't know."  I was in desperate need for some alone time, so it motivated me to go far West on the typical raincouver day. I went into the camera store, semi-determined; I wasn't too excited UNTIL I actually bought the camera and the man handed me the bag and told me that it was all set. After that moment, I had this overly happy grin on my face throughout the journey home and it took hours to disappear.

Buying this camera meant and still means so much to me. I've never felt such an amazing and accomplishing moment in my life. Accomplishment is what I feel when I look at my camera. It not only was the first time I've worked so hard & saved all this money in order to achieve a goal, but it also was an important step in my growth as an independent individual. I did this on my own; I made sacrifices and it was all worth while. It wasn't necessarily the camera that gave me this feeling, but the whole experience and journey to reach that goal that blessed me with this moment and this milestone that I can always look back on.

I'll end this post with encouraging you to work for your dreams, because THAT feeling of accomplishment is something you cannot buy. The journey will be tough (in my case, think of how hard it was to not blow that money on food & clothes, haha), but just keep striving and pushing and you'll thank yourself or God or whoever you wish to thank in the end!

Wishing you the best, Lindsey