just tryna live my life & be the best I can be


A girl with with a mind full of dreams, thoughts and loves.


Sometimes, I just get so mad at myself for not doing anything productive. Don't we all? In my socials class, while we were off topic as usual, I learned that 1 billion seconds is 32 years. Crazy, right? Yes, 1 billion still does sound like a huge number, but if you think about it, the clock is ticking and it never stops. One year is approximately 31,536,000 seconds. 17 years is approximately 536,457,600 seconds. I've been on this earth for more than half a billion seconds and counting! It's unbelievable and I can't get it over my head.

It's the little things that are bothering me. I usually plan out in my head how I want my day to be; usually productive. Then I end up making a queue on my tumblr for a few minutes, which turns into half an hour, then an hour. So.. I just wasted an hour on tumblr, which totally wasn't necessary. On rare days, I decide to watch one episode of Friends which lasts about 20 minutes, then I tell myself "just one more, then I'll start doing something more productive.." and before i know it, another few hours are wasted. Ah, why can't I fulfill my plans of the day and feel pride in what I do?!

Time won't wait for you. We can all achieve so many things within those accumulating seconds or we can achieve almost nothing at all. My long-term goals with living more would be to do what I love and what makes me happy. Yes, I love watching TV shows and movies. Yes, looking over images, quotes, and posts on tumblr for inspiration and understanding is satisfying.. but there is just so much I could be doing that I love to do as well, but for some reason, those things aren't my priorities. I could be out and about, taking photos of my beautiful city, I could be creating my ideas of art, I could be GETTING MY L, I could be WRITING MORE ON MY BLOG.. I'm tired of this lazy and unmotivated attitude I've been having for so long.

The challenge of being surrounded my lazy people. It sucks, but not many people around me are really living. It's so easy to be sucked into that state that they're in, but we need to push through. It's like this contagious and ugly feeling that I always regret being in. Almost every teenager I know wouldn't do something because their friends wouldn't do it. Even I'm like that sometimes, but hey, we all have the choice to do anything we want. I'm trying to live as much as possible, and hopefully, that wonderful feeling will brush off onto others.

It's okay, calm down a little. I mean I guess it's a good thing I don't spend a large number of time, compared to others, on Netflix. I guess my other blog is beneficial because I find inspiration and also am surrounded my other Jesus followers and lovers. I've accomplished actually putting up this blog and managing to post an article every week. I've found what I want to do in life and that stress is now gone. It's okay to have lazy days, just not every day. It's okay.

Now's the time for the next step. Now's the time to keep moving forward and never stop. I pray to God, asking Him to give me strength and motivation to accomplish my little or big goals, what ever they are. Keep pushing. Keep wanting to succeed. Don't stop moving. You'll get there, and you will be proud of your accomplishments that bring you complete joy and fullness.

Joshua 1:9 NIV - Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.

Let's all start living.